Art, and a Sacramental Encounter

Andrew Killick - Rain Walk

I was recently interviewed by Katherine Overall-Cass for the SGM blog about my 2023 book Rain Walk. It turned into a great conversation about a sacramental encounter with the elements and contemplative art-making…

From the interview…

You have commented that Rain Walk is the most contemplative of your five books. Can you say more about that?

A contemplative way of being is core to my creative life and approach, so that has been important in all my books. But I think this one is more explicitly contemplative.

The experience at the centre of the book is contemplative by nature – walking in the rain as a deliberate act desiring encounter, carrying the reality of the human condition, with an intentional receptivity to the divine, to the transcendent.

That is then passed through a contemplative lens in the form of a poem, and deeper thinking about the experience through the essay. Those language forms make the contemplative spiritual aspect a bit more explicit, including themes of sacramentality and such.

I don’t say this in the book, because the idea has only just occurred to me now: perhaps nature and the rain were the clothes of God for me that day.

Continue reading at the SGM blog…

I Have Become a Ripple of Light

I have become
A ripple of light –
Upheld and borne along.

I never grow tired of shooting underwater light effects – water and light in unending variation – appearing here with a short poetic meditation.

The footage itself is unedited, feel free to watch with sound on or off. Watch on Vimeo for fullscreen.

A Shoreline Conversation

I’ve spent a bit of time at the meeting place of sea and land. I’ve looked at it, photographed it, stood in it, dived through it, got to know it pretty well.1

Here’s an imagined conversation between (in my presumption) the poet-philosopher-theologian John O’Donohue (JO’D) and me (AK), using quotes from his wonderful book Divine Beauty and my book Islands.

AK: During a sideways jolt in my life, a run in with burnout and anxiety, a friend and I went north to the Bay of Islands, and visited Marsden Cross, Oihi Bay.

On that wet, stormy day, I felt a sense of pilgrimage, and experienced it as a thin place. An excited, perhaps hungry, at times uneasy embrace had occurred there in history between two cultures. An arrival on the beach, a welcome, a proclamation, a renegotiating of the paradigm.

As I stood there in the angular rain, I watched the waves curling over onto the shore, foaming up the sand and pebble, advance, diminish, advance, diminish. The meeting of land and sea. The outline of the map describing that point of meeting. A line described in white.

I had a deep empathy for it, and perhaps I and it were sharing in a bigger story that encompassed all. Anyway, that turbulent place of meeting, the land and water together being the elements of coastline, was a treasured and mysterious metaphor for what was going on inside me. Perhaps I could find communion and a paradoxical kind of stillness there.2

JO’D: The wild divinity of the ocean infuses the shore with ancient sound. Who can tell what secrets she searches from the shoreline? What news she whispers to the shore in the gossip of urgent wavelets? This is a primal conversation. The place where absolute change rushes against still permanence, where the urgency of Becoming confronts the stillness of Being, where restless desire meets the silence and serenity of stone. Beyond human seeing and knowing, the meeting of ocean and shoreline must be one of the places where the earth breaks through to word.3

AK: The land shapes the water, diverts it, dictates the dynamic and path of its flow, draws up breakers, provides the surface on which it turns white. Allowing it to encroach so far but no further for now, allowing it to fill empty places. But then again, the water shapes the land. The water is the land’s negative space, it defines the land’s shape. And over time, regardless of how hard the land is, the water will etch it, carve it, smooth it off, reduce it. I sense there’s beauty in that.4

JO’D: When the tide goes out, the seashore is exposed, its eroded stone pockmarked and chewed by tide. Between tides this line of fragmented shore seems vulnerable as though exposed in an arrested posture from which it cannot stir. It is reminiscent of edge-lines in your life where fluency abandons you. In such times of emotional devastation, the woundedness and fragmentation stand out, naked and exposed. The natural ease of rhythm seizes up. Each gesture, thought and action has to be deliberately willed. Everything becomes extremely difficult. What you would have accomplished without the slightest thought now becomes an action that seems impossible. Yet hope whispers that the tide always returns. Transfiguration graces you gradually. You stood exposed and atrophied, unable to move in the grip of pain; even the ground was naked and broken beneath you. Now gradually fluency returns. You recover your spontaneity and new buoyancy raises you up and your heart is again relieved and glad as when the ocean returns along the shoreline and everything becomes subsumed in the play and dance of young waves.5

AK:

sea noise
white foam salt
water overlaps
my tideline6

JO’D:

May the fluency of the ocean be yours…7

Amen.

 


Divine Beauty (which I thoroughly recommend as one of the finest books I’ve ever read – published in the USA as Beauty: The Invisible Embrace) can be purchased here.

Islands, can be purchased here.


Notes

1. Killick, Andrew, Islands, Shadow Press, 2019. p56.

2. Ibid. pp48-49.

3. O’Donohue, John, Divine Beauty: The Invisible Embrace, Bantam, 2004. p126.

4. Killick. p49.

5. O’Donohue. pp126-127.

6. Killick. ‘fig. 35’, p58.

7. O’Donohue, ‘Beannacht’, To Bless the Space Between Us: A Book of Blessings, Doubleday, 2008. Retrieved from onbeing.org/poetry/beannacht/.

The featured image for this post is a detail of fig. 35 from the Islands series.

On Shadows (A meditation, an experiment or symposium)

I have a favourite biblical metaphor: ‘in the shadow of the Almighty’. It comes from a reading of the meaning of the name of one of my heroes, Bezalel – the character in Exodus who was ‘filled … with the Spirit of God, with ability and intelligence, with knowledge and all craftsmanship, to devise artistic designs’.1 All the dictionaries make ‘in the shadow of’ synonymous with ‘under the protection of’. But why limit the metaphor?2

Anyway, creativity consists of bringing often disparate ideas into conversation to see what emerges, and so I decided to try out an unlikely symposium. I read The Dark Night of the Soul by 16th century Spanish monk and mystic St John of the Cross alongside In Praise of Shadows by 20th century Japanese writer Jun’ichirō Tanizaki. What might emerge?

Aesthetic and Religious3

The 19th century Danish philosopher Søren Kierkegaard charted a philosophical progression from the aesthetic life (a life of youthful sensuality and surface beauty), through the ethical life, to the religious. If these categories are used as a framework for textual critique, our two authors immediately appear to fall into separate camps.

Tanizaki’s work makes no bones about being a thorough-going work of aestheticism and he wouldn’t, I think, see anything pejorative, as Kierkegaard did, about the aesthetic life.

John’s work is a thorough-going religious ascetic exposition that has the ultimate vision of freeing the reader from earthly realms and into unity with God.

Tanizaki relishes the sensual deliciousness of the shadows, while John notices the distinct sensual bitterness (even horror) of darkness.

And yet, there is an aged wisdom in Tanizaki and a profound appreciation for beauty that defies Kierkegaard’s stereotype of shallow, merely hedonistic youthfulness.

And John embraces fleshy and aesthetic metaphors (in all his writing, influenced as he was by Song of Songs), to a degree that seems to verge on the spiritual erotic, that point to a profound (trans-sensual, as it were) deliciousness being found through the darkness, beyond the purgation of the basic human senses.4

A Dark Mise-en-Scène

Both Tanizaki and John begin their excursions grounded in an architectural sense of space, with an evocative, mysteriously dark mise-en-scène.

I.
In a dark night,
With anxious love inflamed,
O, happy lot!
Forth unobserved I went,
My house being now at rest.

II.
In darkness and safety.
By the secret ladder, disguised…5

says John.

Meanwhile, Tanizaki situates his essay within the traditional Japanese home with its shadowy interior.

John uses his mise-en-scène metaphorically, as a launchpad for his leap of faith, his foray into the realms of spirit (he wishes to leave his house), while Tanizaki tends towards the concrete, grounded in his material (he wishes to stay). Nonetheless, there is something evocative in Tanizaki that seems to hint (unless it’s just my eager imagination trying to make connections) at a kind of poignant presence:

And yet, when one gazes into the darkness that gathers behind the crossbeam, around the flower vase, beneath the shelves, though we know perfectly well it is mere shadow, we are overcome with the feeling that in this small corner of the atmosphere there reigns complete and utter silence; that here in the darkness immutable tranquillity holds sway.6

And (in a passage that I think St John would have appreciated, at least metaphorically):

On the far side of the screen, at the edge of the little circle of light, the darkness seemed to fall from the ceiling, lofty, intense, monolithic, the fragile light of the candle unable to pierce its thickness, turned back as from a black wall. I wonder if my readers know the colour of that ‘darkness seen by candlelight’. It was different in quality from darkness on the road at night. It was a repletion, a pregnancy of tiny particles like fine ashes, each article luminous as a rainbow. I blinked in spite myself, as though to keep it out of my eyes.7

The Religion and Dynamic of Light and Dark

Later, Tanizaki remarks on the Western preference for light, makes a true observation, tries to explain it, but misses noticing that it is, to a significant extent, a religious situation.

Western Christianity, and therefore culture, is steeped in the metaphors of brightness. Western art loves chiaroscuro – the interplay of shadow and light – but the eye ever draws to brightness. This is what makes John of the Cross, and a few other Western Christian mystics, so remarkable… they notice the treasures of darkness, peer into it and treat the dark night as being a normal season in the life of faith. (This is their major gift to the church.)

In this way, they connect round to a more Eastern understanding (it is held in Orthodox Christianity as well)… the one alluded to (I think) in the above quotes from Tanizaki. Darkness is an inevitable fact of life, and there can be, and is, beauty and presence there.8

It’s a presence-absence dynamic, a paradox in which the two interweave into some kind of quantum whole… an ultimate unity. I think our worded mindset wants to run the presence-absence dynamic parallel with speaking-silence. But the two are not strictly synonymous, though that second paradox also ends up interweaving into unity. Whoops. For a minute there I lost myself.9

Emergence

Perhaps I’m not doing either author full justice by trying so hard to find them common ground (in reality they are very different works), but – the shared themes of the two essays?

The night and shadows bring their gifts which, if we are content to sit where we find ourselves and watch (behold) and see (a contemplative / mindful posture), forms of beauty will appear, emerge.10

As for our third conversation partner, Kierkegaard11 sneaks in with the final word. For now. What becomes of aesthetics when all things flourish in the religious life, the life of Presence, when darkness is not simply darkness but the shadow and shade of the divine? A place of protection (sanctuary), yes, but also the space and ground of transformation, creation,12 and so much more.

Everything in its right place.

As far as the aesthetic stage of existence is concerned what is preserved in the higher religious stage is the sense of infinite possibility made available through the imagination. But this no longer excludes what is actual. Nor is it employed for egotistic ends. Aesthetic irony is transformed into religious humour, and the aesthetic transfiguration of the actual world into the ideal is transformed into the religious transubstantiation13 of the finite world into an actual reconciliation with the infinite.14

Aesthetics with a capital A, our leaps of faith being like the dancer’s leap, both upward and grounded. Embodied but/and transcendent. Sacramental and complete.

That being the case, spare me the extremes of the body disconnection, excessive ascetic tortures and horrors of John15 and the fundamental materialism of Tanizaki but, partaking in something of their imagination, let me into the shadow of the Almighty.

 


Notes

1. Exodus 31:3-4, ESV.

2. Interesting aside, I’ve read that, etymologically, the name Bezalel, when broken up into its constituent parts, could also be given the meaning ‘Swamp to the Lord’, or perhaps ‘God’s onion’ relating to layers that can be stripped off or unpeeled – make of these things theologically what you will. Personally, it gets my creative mind running. www.abarim-publications.com/Meaning/Bezalel.html, retrieved 28/7/19.

3. I kept wanting to play with the near homophone, aesthetic-ascetic – didn’t manage to pull it off!

4. As with other mystical writers who embrace the way of purgation, it is difficult to untangle the pain-pleasure dynamic in St John’s writing when castigation is seen as a divine love-move fuelled by the passion of both parties. Darkness, despite its horror, is the passage to divine unity. So St John is both repelled and attracted by it. Does this problematise the concept of asceticism? One thing is clear though – St John does not wish to stay in the darkness as if that were a sufficient final destination – it is, in the final analysis, just a mechanism to reach the glorious light of God’s presence and being.

5. St John of the Cross, The Dark Night of the Soul, David Lewis (trans), Thomas Baker, 1908. p1. archive.org/details/TheDarkNightOfTheSoul1908/page/n31, retrieved 28/7/19.

6. Tanizaki, Jun’ichirō, In Praise of Shadows, Thomas J Harper & Edward G Seidensticker (trans), Vintage, 2001. pp32-33.

7. Ibid. p52.

8. ‘we Orientals tend to seek our satisfactions in whatever surroundings we happen to find ourselves, to content ourselves with things as they are; and so darkness causes us no discontent, we resign ourselves to it as inevitable. If light is scarce then light is scarce; we will immerse ourselves in the darkness and there discover its own particular beauty. But the progressive Westerner is determined always to better his lot.’ Ibid. p48.

9. A related poetic expression:

But the faith and the love and the hope are all in the waiting.
Wait without thought, for you are not ready for thought:
So the darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing.

T.S. Eliot, ‘East Coker’, Four Quartets

10. Another voice, the Persian Sufi poet Rumi:

The Darkness
Night cancels the business of the day;
inertia recharges the mind.
Then the day cancels the night,
and inertia disappears in the light.
Though we sleep and rest in the dark,
doesn’t the dark contain the water
of life?
Be refreshed in the darkness.
Doesn’t a moment of silence
restore beauty to the voice?
Opposites manifest through opposites:
in the black core of the heart
God created the eternal light of love.

Rumi, The Pocket Rumi, Kabir Helminski (ed), Shambhala, 2017. p89.

11. Kierkegaard is an ascetic, so more in the tradition of John. I don’t know Tanizaki’s oeuvre well enough to assess his ascetic tendencies… if they are in In Praise of Shadows, they are perhaps expressed as simplicity.

12. ‘The earth was without form and void, and darkness was over the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters.’ Genesis 1:2, ESV.

‘The darkness is like a font from which we shall ascend washed and illumined…’ Thomas Merton, Dairies, April 8, 1950, II.428, in A Year with Thomas Merton, Jonathan Montaldo (ed), SPCK, 2005. p99.

‘The things of Time are in connivance with eternity. The shadows serve You.’ Thomas Merton, Dairies, July 4, 1952, II.487, in ibid. p221.

13. A note about terms: I love the embodiment and incarnational sacramentality that transubstantiation implies here (though I refrain from holding it as a real action in the Eucharist). But I love a bit of transfiguration. As I understand it, transubstantiation is about imbuing the ‘mere physical’ with Presence and glory, the outside divine coming in. But transfiguration is about revealing the Presence and glory that is already implicit and innate, the existing divine revealed. Both are something to behold – and I want to hold both concepts (mysteries) … an interweaving of transformation/incarnation and revelation.

15. We were taught to pray, ‘Lead us not into (save us from) the time of trial…’

In Reliquis Vitae

A collage of the anchoring wisdom of some travelling companions – wanderers who’ve been on the path before – writer-saints, Heschel, Thomas, Buechner and Underhill.

Labour is a craft, but perfect rest is an art. It is the result of an accord of body, mind and imagination.1 Life is not hurrying / on to a receding future, nor hankering after / an imagined past. It is the turning / aside like Moses to the miracle / of the lit bush, to a brightness / that seemed as transitory as your youth / once, but is the eternity that awaits you.2 [So] go where your best prayers take you. Unclench the fists of your spirit and take it easy. Breathe deep of the glad air and live one day at a time. Know that you are precious. Remember the [serendipitous moments and interventions of God] and learn to trust. Know that you can trust God.3 [Allow yourself to experience] the double movement of Transcendent Love, drawing inwards to unity and fruition, and rushing out again to creative acts…4

 


Notes

1. Abraham Joshua Heschel (1907-1972), Polish-born American rabbi, theologian, philosopher and mystic, in The Sabbath.

2. R.S. Thomas (1913-2000), Welsh poet and Anglican priest, in ‘The Bright Field’, R.S. Thomas: Everyman Poetry.

3. Frederick Buechner (1926-), American writer and Presbyterian minister, in Telling Secrets.

4. Evelyn Underhill (1875-1941), English Anglo-Catholic writer and mystic, in Practical Mysticism.